Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Big Bang

Brittney Spears and I have one thing in common (maybe two). Number one: Our dance moves mystify. Number two: We get rid of our hair whenever the going gets tough. When I'm under any sort of duress, my hair is the first thing to go: lips, brows, underarms, legs, and, of course, the hair on my head. Gone. Gone. Gone.

In college I had decided that I was NEVER getting married. I wasn't the marrying type. Too grouchy. Too headstrong. Too unsure of myself. My emotions wrapped themselves up in a pair of scissors and dared to cut my hair shorter than Spock's, and yes, I looked just like a Romulan, ears and all. Weeks later, I was standing in the doorway laying a wet one on my beloved. When I least expected love, it was there crumbling the Bumble and bumble in my slicked hairdo.

My college haircut has repeated itself, again and again, like a religious ceremony. Each time something big happens: newborn baby, disappointment, new church calling, loss of a loved one, new house, or an empty nest for eight hours a day, the scissors come to do the job.

Like a caterpillar emerging from her cocoon, I leave the bathroom transformed. I'm stronger, ready to grab life by her necklace and get back what I came here for. All the while, I'm cushioned with unbreakable love. I always know, in the back of my mind, the fall will never be hard enough to break what's bolstering me upward.

Why does it take a new set of bangs to remind me that nothing will change more than this life?
Embrace it, chica.

13 comments:

  1. You express your self so well. The bangs are so cute! I love hearing about all your escapades.

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  2. Brandee, I spy on your blog all the time. I love hearing about you too. Those chicken bakes look delectable.

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  3. Your hair always looks cute...short or long... well I guess I've never seen you with long hair... so short or shorter you look so sophisticated!

    PS Don't bother to check out my blog! I'm too busy with ornament issues and my computer got a baaaaad virus :(

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  4. katy - I love your blog! You are a fabulous writer! Love the hair all the time! Miss you guys!!!

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  5. That mom is the cutest mom in the world! Watch out America's Next Top Model, Katy is on her way! Haha!

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  6. Jolyn, I can't wait for your official ornament release. You're going big; I can feel it in my bones.

    Melissa, I love you and my kids talk about your kids ALL THE TIME!

    Hannah, I'm glad you still love me.

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  7. You are always going to look beautiful. I love the bangs. But I am a product of the eighties. Maybe you should do a little teasing and add some aqua net.
    Love ya.

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  8. This is a great post... I am the SAME way. When my life is spinning out of control, the only thing I can always control is my hair... soooo off it goes. Yeah, life has been pretty good the last 2 years because my hair is long right now... just waiting for the next tragedy. I had a miscarriage in 1998 and cut my hair SPIKEY short. I kept it that way for awhile and after 2 years I did get pregnant again and started growing it back out. AND what is funny, I was talking to my husband about you yesterday and he said "Isn't she your friend that shaved off all of her hair?" I had forgotten about that, but apparently he did not forget.... and here the next day you post this about your hair.... oooooh, its almost spooky.

    -Tracey

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  9. Are you serious!? He has great memory. I wish you lived next door. Move here.

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  10. You shaved off all your hair? You're my hero.

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  11. Your bangs are the cutest- love um! Now for old times, split them in half, curl the top half up and the bottom half under and hairspray like crazy!

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